dailies
Saturday, August 30, 2008
-9:59 PM
relink me:
http://yi_qi.livejournal.com (:
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
-2:23 PM
Just came back from
da-
baoing my lunch from
MakanShiok. I must say that their
Ayam Penyet/
Penyat is
damm nice. Though quite spicy, but it's great man!
Saw 2 old
ladys that usually hang out in this area. Actually I got to notice them through the Spin and Win promotion at
Hong Kah Point.
One of the old lady collects old
cardboards and cans, and since we have
alot of old
cardboards at the booth, I normally hand it to her. So that she at the same time, earn some money from it.
The other old lady frequents the booth, not to spin the wheel, but actually to get a balloon from us. According to Ah Wang (my
god brother who i got to know at the booth), she often request for the red balloon.
I just saw old lady no. 2 at the
coffee shop downstairs of my workplace. She just sat down there, hands on the table and holding a blue plastic bag which I'm not sure what are the contents, but what came to mind was,"Have she taken her lunch?", "Should I go up and ask her, and
probably offer to treat her something instead?" But in the end I
didn't, and now I am currently typing an entry sitting right here.
Maybe I really think too much. But...
don't u think they're pitiful? Like if they really have nothing to eat? Maybe only survive on the
meager sum that they have...haix. Perhaps that's the problem of having no or low education.
Friday, July 04, 2008
-11:40 AM
hi everyone. i quite bored now...nothing to do. havent handed up my moe tuition fee application form. shld i send or hand it up personally? Zzz. And gotta help him buy white longsleeve shirt and black pants... family visit on sunday. (:
kinda confused over whether taking up psychology was right from the start...perhaps cos i'm scared if there're too many yo yo yo ppl there-or some other culture which i cannot fit in. Hope everything turns out good. =X
Another concern that I have would be my futre prospects, being a graduate in psychology doesnt mean that i can practice psychology outside. needa get least masters/phd. Otherwise, from my observation while reading The Straits Times on saturday, careers in education of special needs children would need such qualifications. or HR-when they only need a general degree.
I really dont know what I want in life...kinda lost without any aims or targets or goals for me to achieve. Somehow going with the flow of getting a degree and then heck it. Teacher? Banking/Finance industry? Accountant? TCM specialist?
hope i wake up someday with a GOAL in life. if not, it's the start of a season of deep thinking.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
-8:32 PM
Just opened the mailbox this morning and saw a large envelope from NTU. thought it was the handout for my NIE handbook, so I didnt really take note. However, when I was opened the letter while talking to kS at Macs, I found out that it was the Freashmen Handbook for NTU, and I had been successful in my appeal for a course in Psychology in NTU.
OMG. really dilemma now. A part of me is thinking if I should take up the Psychology course, do extremely well in the course and then jump course at the next sem. If not, to accept the MOE offer to become a techer for 4 years, with the first 2 years of study paid by MOE and I still get salary from them... otherwise, to reject all offers and concentrate on my RETAKING A levels.
I am thinking if I should accept the Psychology course, do extremely well in both the course and A levels (retake) and then opt to change my course after year 1.
WHAT SHOULD I DO? kind souls please offer me some suggestions!!! =/anyway, gals outing: joy, wanting, angie and me to makan at Alexander food ctr was good! great dinner ;) and wanting, I've blogged again! HAHAHA.
confused.
Friday, June 06, 2008
-10:20 AM
Currently working at the Spin and Win promotion at Hong Kah Point.
And guess who I saw just now? Mr. Econs Tan.
Spoke with him about sch, naturally he mentioned the university thingy...told him I gotten rejected from NUS and NTU, he seemed quite surprised that BCC tio rejected. But after telling him my choices for course...he kinda knew why I kena rejected. Mr. Tan said that I kinda wasted my chances by putting business as my 1st choice for both schools.
I guessed so too. Maybe I shouldnt have put that as my choice. Haix. And I told him I'll be retaking the exam, but cant get him to tutor me Econs again. Sadx. Mr. Tan said he's going to RV to start their Econs programme for IP students. WAH. RV people zhuan4 dao4 liao...
Sometimes I wonder, so what if we have gotten a degree? Does it make us seem better or become the smarter and privilleged mankind? Life still goes on, perhaps having that piece of paper is a springboard to several opportunities.
Shucks.Gotta get back to work.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
-11:41 PM
As she opens the mailbox, anxiety overcame her as she saw the university logo that she was awaiting for.The letter is a flat, thin piece. Different from what people in the forum had said. Immediately she knew it was a bad omen. Upon arriving home, she peeled open the letter, took out and read:...I regret to inform you that your application for admission to NUS has not been successful.That's it. _______________________________________________
Once I read this part, I knew I was almost gone. I became very angry and disappointed. You mean even engineering doesn't want a BCC grader? At that moment I really hated NUS, hated the STANDARD letter format. But I knew I was the cause of it. It's me who went for the exam.
And I didnt do my best at all.
Right now I really want to show to these freaking unis what I'm capable of. There's this flame in me right now that urges me to retake the entire exam again. I am tempted.
But I havent received my outcome from NTU. I have these options:
- Retake the A LEVEL EXAM.
- Wait for NTU's reply. Pray for miracles to happen, pray that I get into other courses other than NIE.
- If my teaching application is successful, I opt for teaching.
WHERE SHOULD I GO? I'm tired.
Monday, May 26, 2008
-6:37 PM
Today is the 26th of May 2008. Woke up at 7.47am and found myself running late for the MOE teaching interview scheduled at 9am. (And I also dreamt of myself being late for the interview, in the end had to call the person-in-charge to inform them about it). So anxious me hurried to wash up, then gulped down coffee and 2 slices of bread, got changed and went out. But so suay upon reaching the ground floor, the rain started pouring and poor me had to take out my umbrella to walk to the 240/246 bus stop near Parc Vista to get to Lakeside. But the rain just got so big that I had to turn in to the HDB flats route to walk to the MRT station instead.
As I just stepped into the shelter of the FIRST HDB flat, I saw an Indian (no racism intended over here) standing there with his hands holding something and fiddling at his pelvic region. On a closer look (as I was walking towards the HBD flat and he was somewhere near the entrance) I saw that he was actually ma****bating. OH MY TIAN. I quickly held the umbrella to block him, and hurried away in another direction. THIS IS FFFREAKING UNLUCKY AND DISTURBING. Ran till about 2 meters away den turned back to see if he’s behind…SHUCKS. And I was wearing heels at that moment!!! He was following behind me…DAMM IT. Really very scary to be in that situation. Moreover it was raining and there weren’t much people around. Though in the past when I saw something like that on TV, I would have said, “Just hit him in the groin la.” But being a TV viewer and in the situation was entirely different. I was really scared out of my wits and in the back of my mind; I just want to get out from that place to somewhere populated. Luckily I was nearing the MRT station, and there were some people walking towards it too. Boarded the train then off to MOE interview.
I couldn’t really comfort myself at that moment. Was really turning hysterical…Wanted to cry out but who dares to cry in such a crowded environment? I tried to stabilise my mind. And that was when this stupid guy stepped on my toe. Sianx. I wanted to scream at him at that moment to vent my anger and all the cramped up emotions. And I still had an interview to go. So silently, I kept to myself, forced to bring out a smile on my face and said..."It's okay."
Went for the short teaching interview that lasted about 10 mins, and then left the place for home. Saw this JJC gal from s19, and WOW, she can recognise that I'm from s16! And she's after my turn...I was the first interview of the day. We both got the same results except for GP and Econs. And she didnt take Chinese. Took 198 home, on the way really felt like crying, in the end wept. Thought for a very long while through the journey. Wonder what would happen if he learnt about what happened in the morning?
I didnt tell anyone else, partially cos I am going to blog about this today, and everytime talking about this crap send tremors down my spine...thinking about the running away and feeling so helpless while a demon is behind chasing after you.
No wonder I have dreams on running up and down through a HDB flat without lifts and exits.
Went back to work as per normal, faking that fake smile on my face and pretending nothing at all happened. Truth is, this is gonna affect life somehow. I hope not.
Then dear you got take out your knife and prepare to cut his thing just in case? :( i'm going to kill that indian. was his reply.
Yes, I will. By then I'll have castrated all men. (: *WELL DONE*
